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Peer Pressure and Depression by David
Posted by ozzieblackcat at 7/16/2007 9:39 PM and is filed under depression,self esteem,Stress,Anxiety 
It's hard to get out around other people when I am depressed
and I have been depressed all my life. My self esteem makes
me think I in no way measure up to others. I wonder if maybe I am too
tall, overweight, clumsy, don't wear the right clothes, people
hate me, people think I am a bum. Those are all of the things I am
thinking when I go out in the world. I feel I am under constant
scrutiny.
I have been trying something different lately and
sometimes it works. I have been trying not to look at people
to see if they are looking at me. Now I realize that if I go through
life with my head down or with blinders on, people may look
at me even more.
What works for me(sometimes) is to focus on
other things. We are all people watchers but I try to limit it
to watching people at a distance. At closer range I try to
focus on something else like the scenery, be it trees, buildings
or the traffic light (when I am waiting to cross the street).
It is very discouraging and heartbreaking when we don't feel
like we are just as good as other people.
and I have been depressed all my life. My self esteem makes
me think I in no way measure up to others. I wonder if maybe I am too
tall, overweight, clumsy, don't wear the right clothes, people
hate me, people think I am a bum. Those are all of the things I am
thinking when I go out in the world. I feel I am under constant
scrutiny.
I have been trying something different lately and
sometimes it works. I have been trying not to look at people
to see if they are looking at me. Now I realize that if I go through
life with my head down or with blinders on, people may look
at me even more.
What works for me(sometimes) is to focus on
other things. We are all people watchers but I try to limit it
to watching people at a distance. At closer range I try to
focus on something else like the scenery, be it trees, buildings
or the traffic light (when I am waiting to cross the street).
It is very discouraging and heartbreaking when we don't feel
like we are just as good as other people.
hi david.....i too suffer with depression so i can understand your feelings but i have to tell you......you are one good looking guy!!!!!!.so if you find people (especially us women lol) looking at you..thats's why!!!!!!!!!....love julia
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This is one of my fears, people judging me. I have taken to the 'looking at the ground' method, which does seem to work until you start hearing the calling of names, and people thinking your weird. I have had people judging me from school as i was different.. being a redhead i got called all sorts of names, and even now at my age, i still get comments shouted at me, from random passers by, which destroy my confidence. The realization that i'm stuck with it has sort of helped, and I've accepted it, but i just don't get why they do this. This has meant i avoid any journeys i don't need to take. I don't shop, take the dog out, anything. This one judgment of me leads me to think what else they judge me on.. i'm small built, too skinny, look younger than my years..the list goes on and every day i seem to find a new self fault. I have met a few accepting, genuine people, who have helped me a little, but just cant seem to find a way to combat this feeling, which gets worse every day, dragging me further and further down and away from society...
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